Yes I Speak in Riddles…

"…is wanting to say something really profound.... but you would never really get it.... not right now... I think... so I remain quiet and hope u get it without hearing it.... someday... damn am I philosophical or what…? Maybe time for a really confusing blog... or maybe I should just go to bed... LMAO!”

That’s my current Facebook status. “Why?” you may wonder, but I just can’t tell! Some words need to remain unspoken for your own sake and that of others! It takes quite a strength of will. Not because of the truth of what might be spoken, but because of the fear of what reaction it might cause in others. Maybe the time isn’t right, maybe a person isn’t ready to hear it, or maybe the circumstances are all wrong! Patience is a virtue, but to me it’s a bother, because as a Scorpio I make up my mind in a jffy - and there it is - stuck in a loop of ever repeating thoughts.  It’s kind of OCD, actually… It’s hard not to be able to share my clearly made up mind with others. All because of false misconceptions and even my own assumptions. Who knows, maybe what I have to say, or think in this case, may be the solution to all my problems LOL!

Yet, I hesitate… Sometimes I wish people of all walks and signs would get this, but they don’t!  Scorpios love scientific facts before they take anything for granted, and even then, they want something to back facts up! Decisions… this mindset often leaves us indecisive…. Why chose from facts that we have no proof for…?!
At the same time we cling to truths and hopes of things to come. Intuition is a big factor, but its hard to go by that with close friends because we rather deny flaws , than see what we don’t want to see…

Well I am quite outspoken, but some things… well I don’t want to hurt someone, or give them hope or  make them hate or love me, just because of some things I write.  I care that much! Sometimes I do it anyway… I am an oxymoron, there you go! LOL

I will not ever expect you to understand me, unless you are a Scorpio like me! Just that much I love just as much as I hate  when I do, but since hate doesn’t serve anyone, I refrain from it. As much as I am a down to earth realistic person, I am a dreamer, a visionary! It starts with dreams, goes on with plans, employs great efforts, and then succeeds. There is not option for failure and integrity is mandatory, if it shall come to pass! If anyone negative gets in my way, they get ignored or dropped… or I use them to enhance my will to rebel, to make things happen despite of them…
I have a great sense of justice… though I don’t want to be the one to judge!
One of my mottos is definitely “Keep your friends close and your enemies closer” don’t me mistaken - I may seem completely unengaged, but I am an observer like no other.  When they say, Scorpios are secretive…. that’s what they talk about. We only share what we find is necessary at that time. If we share a lot you still haven’t heard the half of it!

If you really want to understand someone like me, you better have an IQ of 120+ and the ability to think in an abstract way LOL! Mine is quite a bit higher per most recent test, if you were wondering ;)

I may seem cold, aloof and like I am not paying much attention at times. But it’s really selective hearing and most of the time I will be able to repeat things back to you that you think I never heard! And by the way, I am the most loyal creature you ever met… just saying! Forgive me for who I am and you will have the best friend you ever met! Even if I  don’t always disclose all that is on my mind…. And I love my friends like there is no tomorrow! Just don’t ever get on my bad side….

Dreamscapes

I am very intuitive. My dreams sometimes end up being premonitions. I told people what I dreamed about and hours, days or months later, I was made aware that what I had dreamed, became reality. I also have lucid dreams. Lucid dreams are those in which you can consciously take action to change to outcome of a dream situation. I have had real-time dreams that reflected real-time happenings with real people miles away from me. I confirmed those things right after waking up, minutes after they actually happened.
The mind is a strange thing. Everybody can perceive things at least as well as me, but most people write dreams off as just being imaginary, creations of the brain, maybe based on past experiences or fears of the future.

I believe that in a dream state, the mind gains access to different levels of consciousness, hidden knowledge, maybe even different dimensions. It is most interesting that the brain cannot tell the difference between being awake and being in a dream, for the most part. The physical and emotional reflexes both states of consciousness cause in the body are identical. To me, that means that dreams are simply our mind on a different (higher) plane of reality.

A person that doesn't dream, or complete R.E.M. phases, will not survive long-term. The stress on a body deprived of the ability to rest in sleep paralysis while letting the mind perceive and process thoughts, is too great! I have been there. I had to wake up straight from the last R.E.M. phase and get up out of sleep paralysis, which the body creates temporarily to prevent you from sleep walking and hurting yourself, and go to work at 4:30am... I found myself suffering from shift workers sleep disorder... my body just could not adjust to the schedule I was on - and it hurt me bad. I got depressed. I just about feel asleep on my commute and at work. I literally became debilitated for a while. Eventually my schedule changed and it was a life saver!

Back to dreams. If dreams weren't important, we wouldn't have them. And why are dreams symbolic a lot of times? My daughter dreamed of a two-tailed wolf a bit back, and neither her nor I have ever seen such a mutation or heard of it. It also makes me think of St John's dreams in the Book of Revelation in the Holy Bible. Why would our mind come up with such weird images, all by itself? Are dreams messages from the spirit world we just chose to ignore most of the time? It's possible...